it's been 6 days ever since things went downhill. today you texted me. you told me you weren't really ready to be in a r/s. i know. i am not either. everything's so stressful. 
so i take it that what you said about not wanting me to wait was false the other day? or did you thought that would fix the problem?
right now i can bet that you won't want me anymore. right?
it's so stupid of me to push you away. why the hell do i do it?
honestly nowadays i really don't feel anything at all. that is until i heard songs that you asked me to hear before and when i reach home then i break down.
it's the same routine for me everyday, go to school, try to smile as much as i can, try to laugh if possible, go home, throw stuffs down onto the floor, head into the bathroom.
i'd stay there in the bathroom for quite some time before going into my room.
at least you had friends to help you through this right? i don't tell mine much. that's why i guess i'm always alone?
it's a good choice you made, not being with me. i'm often told that i'm a handful, a bitch and others.
without me your life is much more better you know. you won't be burdened by my problems and how i always break down at even the simplest things.