i don't know if we'll ever be the same again. probably not.
so i guess i've lost 3 friends, in total.
all of them mean so much to me.
Zongxian:
i don't know how to put it but i know this is the second time i've hurt you deeply. i don't mean to you know. now i know how you feel like back then, like you were the 'third party'. i get it. whatever i say won't make you change your mind. you're dead set on asking me to move on anyway. think it's that easy? the way you asked me to move on was like, so easy. easy for you isn't it? you think it's easy for me? if you think that i've never been hurt my life before, think again. this year is a super shitty year, for me it is. at the start already the passing of my dad. the person i was certain that loves me as much as i love him. i did everything with him you know. it isn't that easy to just slowly let go of it. i can't.
then i have a super huge misunderstanding that caused me a lot of friends. you think its easy to go to a school with people who hates you around you? then we have what we have now. you told me you wouldn't leave me. right? what i did the other night was in anger. i was angry that you put most of the blame on me. you were upset because i was close with him again. but do you know how close we were last time? just imagine that you have this super close girl best friend. both of you fell for each other after a year of friendship. you guys were together for another year. then you both broke up. she was one of your very close and trusted and best friend you could ever find. you would still want her back as a friend won't you?
now that i gotten back my friend, shouldn't you feel happy for me? and my tweets were indeed for him. i was being honest. or do you want me to lie about my feelings? no right? 
if you still insist on me moving on then i guess i've got nothing to say anymore.
i'm done trying. i'm done with everything. i'm done.
Jerome:
i definitely know things won't be the same between us anymore. i'm just curious on how you can change your feelings so quick?
please tell me? i feel like a third party now. i feel so cheated on at the same time. how could you?
how could you play the 2 of us this way? we're humans, not dolls for you to play like that you know.
now i don't really know anything that comes out of your mouth at all, whether its true or fake.
i honestly don't know. everytime i begin to slowly trust you again, you give me another reason to stop believing you.
maybe now i won't believe you, maybe. you don't have to have me, you have her. you have your other girls too.
Berlindia:
i hope we won't have much tension between us now. i'm sorry for the things i said yesterday, i know it was hurtful, i know it was mean and i know you were pissed. i'm truly sorry. i know now we may not be the same but i do still hope we have a friendship you know? afterall we've known each other for 4 years now.
i do miss you as a friend and how close we were last time, but i just want you to know that i'm sorry for whatever i've done to hurt you.


i'm really sorry to all three of you, for whatever i had ever done in my whole life to upset you, hurt you, piss you off.
i would never hurt another person intentionally, and i'm truly sorry for being how i was when i was still with you.
i think its better to be hurt physically rather then emotionally to me.
lastly, i hope that you 3 would lead a happy life.