4th Nov 2013
i really don't know how to start the conversation with you. i want you to know how i feel, but yet at the same time i don't want the reaction i got from you like the other time, i'm scared of your reaction
i feel so raw and exposed to even talk about how i feel
it's been really driving me so crazy i keep thinking about it
should i talk to you? should i not? i don't know what to do anymore
to be honest, you're pretty much everything to me
my pillar my wall
the person who really keeps me strong and sane
i really hate how i'm always this weak when it comes to you
i feel so terribly lonely, but you seem just fine with or without me
i can't even bring myself to actually talk about all these with the girls
i miss us very much
10th Nov 2013
i'm done trying to save this 'thing' we have. tired of trying and getting all upset
i feel so dumb for even trying lol
nothing is the same, it probably won't be the same again
how long has it been that i've never seen you? i've not seen you for a month
surprised? maybe not, you might not even care anymore haha
i've tried to talk to you longer, maybe someone else better is talking to you
i really need someone to just reassure me this once that everything is going to turn out okay
i just need a hug
12th Nov 2013
perhaps i should learn to love myself first