punctuation is powerful! oh which reminds we i really should get started on my english homework :/

wow its super windy now! :o i thought i was gonna fly away when i stand up!

had a fun time ytd! :)
Dylan, Justin and me headed to queensway shopping centre in the afternoon to shop for a football for Justin.
we bought it and ate mac, then after awhile Dylan went to school.
then Justin and me walked around, i bought a shorts :)
we went back and gave my godmum the apple pie she asked us to buy, and then in the evening, we brought Troyston down to play the swing while i played soccer with Dylan, Justin and Brendon.
lol i just played awhile then i sat at the side drawing them :)

types of guys i avoid.
1) NEEDY GUY: overly emotional and shares all his feelings right away. doubts himself and needs constant reassurance bout everything.
2) PREDICTABLE GUY: follows formulas and never wants to do anything different! B-O-R-I-N-G!
3) ARROGANT GUY: huge ego and condescending. rude to anyone he perceives as beneath him. total  asshole.
4) BOORISH GUY: checking out other girls while in my presence. VERY flirty and brags bout his past "gf's". no respect to females!
5) CHEAP GUY: invites me to dinner then suggests we go back. makes me feel like they're on a tight budget. (actually i don't really mind, but if it happens ALL THE TIME then i mind.)
6) THE ARGUER: turns every conversation into an argument. makes me feel defensive and self-conscious.

lol. i totally agree with this! no but seriously. haha.

boring day ytd and today. expect more tumblr pics from me! :) xx

OMYGOD. my june holidays = not holiday cos Troyston is always waking me up like 8+
-_- angry!

okie. one last post before i head to bed. or maybe do my homework. or maybe read. HAHAH k anyway here's a picture!

i still miss you. yeah. or rather, i miss the times we spent together. well, since you've moved on, i should too. i have moved on, it's just that i keep stopping in my tracks to see if you would come running up to me, admitting that you want me back. haha nights! tired alr!
see you soon, xx

the pain of holding on is greater than the pain of letting go. it's time to let go.

i'm gonna let you go, as much as it kills me.

haha. feel better. i bathed again in cold water and now im in an air conditioned room. :x
caught a flu but its alright. i screamed, kicked, threw, shout and cried in the bathroom. and now im ready to let go. i feel this peace over me, it's presence makes me calm. :)
it's okay. i'm okay. :)

once you've been hurt, you're just so scared to get attached again; you have a fear that every person is going to break your heart.

but what will happen when this pain doesn't pass? and all it does is hide in a door in your heart, and everytime you pass by it, it will jump right out and taunt you with the memories we once shared.
when will it pass?

i don't love me. and that's how i understand why you don't either.

im stupid. im crazy. im idiotic. im annoying for wanting you to talk to me all the time. im ugly. im selfish. im not thoughtful. im not sweet. im not girly like you wanted. im silly. im hard to understand. im difficult. im stubborn. im impatient. she's all that you've ever wanted, and i'm all you've ever disliked. now i know why you don't love me.

the saddest kind of sad is the sad that tries not to be sad.
you know, when Sad tries to bite it's lip and not cry and smile and go,
"no, im happy for you" ?
that's when it's really sad.

i try my best to let go, really i do.

just like that.

just like that you left.

i do everything i can to keep you out of my mind. because i know the tears will start again. i miss you. you've been gone for so long. but i still miss you. seeing you being so happy is just so.. unreal. it feels like i've never existed at all. it feels like we are strangers.

just finished dinner :)

i remember when we were living like kings and queens, in the little tiny castle made of hopes and dreams. it was destiny, it was meant to be, we were so complete, the perfect team.
then suddenly there's a glitch in the system, and between us is a big strip of distance, they say it's suppose to make the heart grow fonder, for more like i can tell it couldn't be wronger.
a little bit of more goes a long way, a little bit of right goes a long way. i keep giving, you keep taking.
- Pixie Lott's new single, Dancing on my own.



If you're alone, I'll be your shadow. If you want to cry, I'll be your shoulder. If you want a hug, I'll be your pillow. If you need to be happy, I'll be your smile. But anytime you need a friend, I'll just be me.
left-right: me, Jiawei

things are never that scary when you have your best friend with you. ~Bill Watterson
left-right: Jiawei, me



what's a friend? a single soul dwelling in two bodies.~ Aristotle
left-right: Jiawei, me

 good friend is a connection to life - a tie to the past, a road to the future, the key to sanity in a totally insane world. ~Lois Wyse
left-right: Jiawei, me




yesterday brought the beginning, tomorrow brings the end, and somewhere in between, we became the best of friends.
left-right: Me, Jiawei

hehe yay :)
today in the morning went for my dental appointment, met Priscilla @ interchange 9.15. we went into Clementi primary for the dental appointment but the security guard wouldn't let us in cos of improper attire apparently, no offence, everyone thinks that he IS RUDE. i mean srsly.
so i didn't went for dental! :P
so we went back to clementi mall and i changed into school uni, but by then we decided we didn't want to go anymore.
so we had big breakfast at mac! :)
met up with Jiawei, went 8th storey, painted nails, went back to cm.
bought smt for someone :)
then changed back to home clothes after Priscilla left.
we went to the library to borrow chinese storybooks but ended up borrowing english books.
we went to KFC cos she was hungry and lunched there.
then we went to the 25th storey, took pics, then back to cm.
then Jiawei bought yami yoghurt. chatted with Chermaine and Nicole then we went off to interchange!
spammed my phone with pics there :B pictures in the next post! :D
see you later, xx

so sad :( now my hair no more curls alr! i think next time when im older im gonna have curly hair rather than straight! i want rainbow streaks too! :)

Vannesa Hudgens, wavy hair with bangs!

Katy perry curly hair with bangs!

rainbow streaked hair :)

so nice!

so i've decided on a wavy hair with bangs and rainbow streaked hair! YAY :)

i want to forget. i want to forget the times we had together. i want to forget the way you held my hands. i want to forget the way you hugged me. i want to forget the way you piggybacked me. i want to forget you. it's been 2 months, 10 days, 1 hr and 21 minutes. i still can't forget you.

forever? whatever.
i dont believe in forever. a person once told me that he'll love me forever,
but he went away.

haha. back from the so called 'class outing' which only 3 turned up -.-
Jerome, Jadie and me.
yes, Berlyn was supposed to be there but she wasn't. we were at west coast park when we received a text from Berlyn's bf saying that she was in an accident. and that she was in NUH.
so we took a bus, walked alot, then took a bus again and walked somemore, until we reached the dentistry clinic. we texted Berlyn to ask her where she was, but she said that they were at some random bus stop. afterwards we went to the information counter to ask if there was this patient called Berlyn and they asked us for her chinese name. they said she was at the neuroscience clinic so we went up. and then realised that the information counter actually gave the wrong name -_-.
kcan. so we spent like 15 mins debating with the auntie at the neuroscience clinic. Berlyn wasn't there.
so they told us to go back to the info counter to ask again, this time writing down Berlyn's name for them. then they contacted the A & E to check whether Berlyn was there but NO SHE WASN'T EVEN ADMITTED OR WHATEVER. da-fuq? make Jerome so pissed. we tried calling her many times but she did not ans. she rejected our phone calls.
so we gave up and trained to Holland to eat Laksa!
then Jerome sent Jadie and me home :)

*breathe in* *breathe out*
k. this class is fucking pathetic. for the class outing there are like 38 of us and only 4 can make it.
might as well not even have a class outing? i dont fucking care anymore.
lol i just asked Samson to go. lol. k. nvm.
anyw just the 4 of us aint a class outing lor pls. might as well ask others? right?
k byebye. shall update you guys tmr!
nights, xx.

hello! back :) teehee.
okie so daddy brought me down to cut my hair and guess what?! my hair is now bangs and its curly! :)
haha but after few days no more liao :(
haha nvm! here's some pictures!


do i look weird?

:)

left: Angelica, right, me! :B

so do i look weird? :/ hahaha! i like curly hair! but this will only last a few days :( saddening me.
lol. k.

what if you could run away and leave it all behind?

im sure everyone have thought about runnung away before. right? when i was younger, i used to think that running away would be kinda fun, to leave everything and everyone that i dislike behind. i used to dream of living in the countryside, just like those Lesley Pearse books that i had read. it's like so peaceful, and you have the image of yourself being really happy. bright sun, clear skies, glimmering sea, free of troubles and problems.
i now still think of all these. but i wouldn't run away. the action of running away is cowardly. even though i do that sometimes but yes it's cowardly.

we all have stories we'll never tell.

hmm. nothing going on today. boring sunday. wow the musical ytd was like totally awesome! :)
ctss should really have more musicals, so nice! :)
hehe. so anyw met up at interchange with Amalia, Sarah and Berlindia. we ate mac, except for me cos my throat hurts :( and then we got lost for awhile.. and eventually found our way to ACJC.
k apparently we met up at 4 and at 6.45 we reached ACJC. LOL.
this was how long we took to get there including the time at mac.
haha!
Berlindia was wearing this shirt which has holes (which is supposed to be part of the design) and Sarah was carrying this bag which is the same fabric as Berl's shirt and Amalia, said that Sarah probably cut out Berl's shirt in order to make her bag LOL. hahahah~
Amalia was wearing like a Madam. :o
so pretty they all! so sexy also! :)
lol. k. hahah :) so i reached home at bout 11.30. around there! :)
it was quite scary to walk back alone, cos quite dark but i had the glow sticks with me :D
as if the glow stick can defend me. haha k am talking rubbish!
ttyl. cutting my hair :( bangs and layered hair? is it okay? :/
zz.

" i compare myself to every other girl i see "
i feel so inadequate because all the other girls i see everywhere are all so pretty.
i feel so tiny and small next to them, like literally -.-
pssh.

you are beautiful.
you are strong.
stay strong.
it gets better, i promise.

here's a picture for the brokenhearted! i've been thru that before, i know how it feels to be lost. you feel like you're alone but no your not. you still have your friends and your family. there are better people out there waiting to treat you good. remember this, YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL. DON'T LET ANYONE TELL YOU THAT YOU'RE UGLY OR WHAT COS YOUR NOT. BELIEVE IN YOURSELF. DON'T BOTHER WHAT OTHERS SAY. LET THEM SAY WHAT THEY WANT. i love you, whoever you are reading this. be strong now. because things will get better. it might be stormy now, but it can't rain forever. i wish you every bit of happiness. :) <3

today's saturday! :) hehe. later in the evening have musical! yay :)
i've been waiting for it for like so long FINALLY it's here!
haha k.
i saw this necklace that i liked! should i get it or not? :/

haii. came back from tuition mum start scolding -_-
wtf. was in a hurry this morning and i left clothes on the floor.
she says if i never clean it up by tmr she'll start throwing my clothes.
pshh. :P

i want someon who won't care that im incapable of sitting still,
that i can't grasp the concept of cleaning,
and i refuse to be ladylike,
someone who realises that half the decisions i make,
are usually the ones i regret,
and i have the right to overreact at any given moment,
i want someon who knows how completely insane i am,
and he wouldnt want me any other way.

hello! im back after so long :) hehehe sorry for not posting, was kinda busy with the events management course. today's the last day and i have mixed feelings! sad and happy :/
haha k. so anyw tmr's the musical and im like super excited! :)
wanted to talk to someone all week but im kinda nervous :x
asked him whether he wanted to sit beside me but i think that he is scared too perhaps?
so sad :(